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[May. 14th, 2005|09:22 pm] |
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yeah, tessa is forcing me to write in here...but i dont have anything to say. Worked long time, very hard, now tired, go bed. |
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| Heyhjejadf;asjkrehrf;kewajhra;lew |
[Oct. 8th, 2004|08:06 pm] |
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| | NADA!!!!!!1 | ] |
Hey now Hey NOW HEY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my plane is leaving in eight hours and im leaving in six and im sleeping in nonenonenonenoeneneojeone!!!!!!!!!! im staying up all night and then getting up at 3am and catching a shuttle to the airport. Praise the Lamb!!!!!! NEWSSSSSSSSSFFFFFLASHHHH!!!!!!!! i will be in Maine by 12:45 tomorrow. Give me a ring a ding ding....aling. Call me, ill call you, we will hang, like a gang, drinking tang, with a bang. im seriously so excited to see all my maine friends. Please call me and make some plans to see me because i miss you guys!!!! So yeh, tomorrow, ill be there, until the 17th, and then i wont, be there, ever again. Hahahahah kjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk. just till christmas. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i need to shower and fix my hair and find a movie and order pizza and pack and hide my computer and make my bed and febreeze the room and anbd dakjjf;alsdjf;lasdg;k see you next week!!!!!! |
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| UPDATEUPDATEUPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Sep. 25th, 2004|11:18 am] |
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| | Jason Upton-Remember | ] |
IM COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well, for a little while atleast. Im flying home for fall break so im going to be back in Maine from Oct8th to the 17th. Come see me!!!! I miss ya'll. We can hang out and do Mainer things and stare at the Ocean and be cold and it will be beautiful. Praise the Lamb. Im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Exclamation Points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Mold |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|07:16 pm] |
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Dear lord my eyes are burning. Today has been, and still will be, a study day. I have been staring and stareing and starring and sadtijtngaj at this computer screen forrrrrrrrrrrrrevah!!!!! Um hi, I havent talked to anyone in forever. Dude! I went on my first road trip. My and some chicks and some dudes went to my friends house in Texas. She is a wealthy mofo so her house was the bomb. And they took me to the beach and then we went out on her familys boat and went tubing and stuff stuff stuff. I am sun burned and happy, but stressed. I got a ton o fun fun fun homework to do. The boys here are totally odd, and so are the girls. I am seriously still struggling with the people here. The are def alot of cool lads and lasses, but the majority is totally weirding me out. Totally. I hate the food. The people on my floor are incredible! Yeh, that was spanish. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! I have discovered teen girl squad on homestar runner. I watch it in between like, all of my classes. Toot Toot. I had to put neosporin on my nose because of my sunburn. UMUMUMUMJUMUMUMUMUM..........my favorite class is Psych and then HUmanities and then Old Testament and then Chemistry and then gym and then Oral Com. I dont like oral com. I have it at 7:50 in the morning. Okay, breaks over, homework time. I miss you maine. I miss you all. |
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| lard |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|05:36 pm] |
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| | NAH NAH NAH NAH WHAT WHAT!? | ] |
Right then, sorry i havent updated in aproximatley ten years. The food still sucks and God still rocks. Ive already experienced a little drama and already informed every one here what i think of drama. My roomate continues to be amazing. Almost everyone on my floor is having mild drama trouble with there roomate and im not. It is so amazing how God answered my prayers about my roomate. Ive run into alot of controversy about what i believe here, people are pretty lawful here, but me and my roomate agree on just about everything. The other day some kid tweaked cuz i said i believed that you could commit suicide and still go to heaven, seriuosly, i think he wanted to kill me, and i came up stairs and crystal made me feel all better cuz she agreed with me. I am having a hard time with some of the peeps here. People say fag like its normal. Not everyone does, its just that some guy on my brother wing did and when i told him what i thought of that he said he wouldnt change. Which is fine cuz it is his choice, i was just dissapointed. The girls continue to be slightly odd and brainless. I continue to be slightly annoyed and dirty. The great thing is that the girls on my floor are some of the most incredible people i have ever met and i have found the most amazing church. Its called Guts. Talk about radical. The praise and worship is amazing. I love it when Im praising God and just forget about everything. People and problems disapear and everything becomes wonderful and happy. I remember one time a ex-drug addict friend of mine said that being in the presence of God was like being on exctasy except a thousand times better. Interesting comparison. I wouldnt know. Some of the people may be a pain, but God is totally making up for it and so are the Godly people here. I can promise all of you that I will not be the same when i come home. I will always be me, just the new and improved version. Oh, im still dressing like a dirty hippie, and i stopped wearing makeup, and im back to being real. I love being in a place where the God part of my life is finally accepted, where i can pray and not have sex and not do drugs and not gossip and people think better of me for it. I was actually congratulated by someone here for being a virgen. Thats like the first time ever. Its 100 degrees out right now and im going to a concert tonight. I MISS THE OCEAN |
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| school |
[Aug. 16th, 2004|06:27 pm] |
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My classes are done for the day and i dont know what to do with myself. Starting next week i will be running a mile and a half almost every day. So as i walk around the campus i find it really annoying that every girl here has a cell phone. the walk to class talking on their phones. They are always on their phones. They wear their hair down and lots of makeup. Tons of girls wear those new pointy-toed high heels. I admit that im a little scared of them (the high heels) becuase they look like if you got them really mad they could rip off their shoes and stab you to death. Im finding that maybe not everyone is as nice as i thought. Im starting to know people better and im seeing their insecurities and hang ups and weirdness. I sit in the cafeteria and watch the mass flirting. Its like the matting grounds of the school. Seriously, it has a tribal/jungle kind of aura about it because of all the flirting. Its weird. My roomate is still da bomb though. Shes not like that. Either are a couple other cool ladies i hang with. Our brother wing in pretty lame. I like two of them, wait no three. Some arent even christians. they were sitting at lunch and talking about getting drunk and having sex. I was like awesome. this is so awesome. I was so looking forward to finally hangin with some quality christian guys and this is what im handed? well poop on them. And then in my HPE class today the guys behing me were acting like idiots. They wouldnt shut up while the teacher was talking and they were swearing (or "cussin" as they say here). It reminded me of marching practice durring graduation. Remeber how bad that was? And i thought they would be freshman but when i looked behind me they turned out to be really really really old. Not in their thirties but you know what i mean...So i nearly puked today when two of my friends started going on and on about their school spirit and getting married. They were talking about when they planned on getting hitched and about how they couldnt wait for basketball season. Im still searching for some kindred spirits here. My roomate is the coolest so far. She da bomb. I feel so young here with all these older kids, or atleast i did, and then i started to spend some time with them and they didnt act any different then i did. Some of them even act younger than i do. This whole college thing is difficult. Hard, tiring, but then wonderful and amazing all at the same time. I so look forward to growing and changing while i am here. Oh, by the way, guess what maria started doing? Maria started wearing makeup. |
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| college of course |
[Aug. 15th, 2004|02:38 am] |
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| | Moby 18 | ] |
So, today i learned that there is a brain eating parasite in ORU's lake. I was talking about swimming in it and Becky told me to not even get near it. Especialy none up your nose cus thats how the parasite gets to your brain. I thought they were taking advantage of how gullible i am but they werent. The bacteria comes from all the ducks and geese that poop in the lake. Its really more like a pond. So yah, there are tons of geese. They are all over the lawns and everywhere. No romping around in the grass with bare feet for maria. Their poop is green and disgusting. I want to kill them. I really really really miss my family. Every time i look at tessas pictures i start to cry. And i just started my period so im even more emotional then usual. Im starting to go a little crazy cuz im not getting much alone time(living with another person and all) and i really need alone time. Its really not my roomate. Its all the people that are constantly running in and out of my room. So i skipped a couple activities today like a cookout and a movie so i could be by my self. Oh, i walked six miles and rode a reindeer. My friend Becky was like, Wana go for a walk? and i was like sure. yah, we walked six miles, it was insane, but the view off of the bridge was amazing. im still enjoying the people. My floor in particular is really good. Alot of them are upper classmen, and even they say our floor is unusually awesome. The food sucks. Im always hungry. Ive already lost five pounds. I have my first homework assignment. For chem i have to write and essay in response to this question " If science is the search for truth, and God is Truth, then will science lead you to God" k im fixing to go to bed( Crystal says fixin, shes already asleep, but the rest of my floor isnt),night ya'll |
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| life in Oklahoma |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|01:02 am] |
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Alrighty then! The first two days were really hard but everything is alot better now. It was hard because I didnt know anyone and I felt very self concious. I felt like I looked stupid and didnt fit in and that I was ugly and that I had a bad personality and blah blah blah...but its da'bomb now. I have a clique on my floor now and my room mate is so cool. OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHHOOOO!!!! My roomate switched her major to nursing. ohhhhhhhhhhhh!!and my dorm room is awesome. It is sooo roomy and cute and homey and just amazing. So the "clique" includes Cori from Kansas, Joel from India (her parents are missionaries, she was born in Minesota), Crystal my roomate, and Alicia from Kansas. My RA is great too. Everyone here is nice, and Im not exagerating. The compasion of God is everywhere. For example, I said goodbye to my family today and it was soooooooo hard for me. I started crying and sniffled my way back to my dorm alone. On my way to the elevator a totall stranger introduced herself to me and said she saw me say goodbye to my parents and that she knew it was hard and she invited me in her room if I needed to talk. She was all smiles and sincerity. Keep in mind that she didnt even know me. And the really cool thing is that everyone, EVERYONE, here is like that. My first day a senior took me into my dorm and showed me around and made me feel so awesome and at ease, and she had just that day, like five minutes earlier, from the hospital for a poisonous spider bite. She was even heading in a different direction when i asked her a quick question. Everyone is so helpful and caring. Im going to do really well here. Um, um, um...lets see...The food is good. I had chicken fried steak for the first time, and white gravy. I dont recomend it. My first day of classes are tomorrow. Now that is something Im nervous about. I miss maine. I miss you all. funny how my new group of friends is a group of five of us. Kinda like us ladies from the W-town crew, but there are still no guys. No davids or scotts or whoevers. I have yet to bond with the males here, but they all open the door and such. This is going to be so awesome. Write me back some comments and tell me how ya'll are doing. |
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| Adios! |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|01:33 pm] |
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this is my last entry before Oklahoma. That reminds me, i need to buy an iron. Dear lord i have made almost forty trips to walmart in the last couple days. Packing is so weird. Okay, here are the things i need to say. I wanted to say good bye here just in case i didnt get to do it in person. to my fellow W-towners (no that doesnt mean the whole town of windham, just my gang members) you made senior year fun. There really is no better compliment seeing as school used to make me want to kill myself, and this year it didnt. I can actually see myself wanting to stay in touch with all of you. Another huge compliment because you know how picky i am. You guys never sieze to impress me with how much better you are then everyone else. oh boy, that sounded kind of mean, oh the well...Please dont let me come home over x-mas break to find that you have all become like everyone else. If you promise not to cave, i promise not to come back with puffy hair and a fake tan. Im going to miss my friends and cool Ben Stiller fan cousins (yup Ty thats you)but im totally physced (sp?) for this new adventure. I just remembered that i need to buy hangers. Heavens to Betsy. I only hope I am prepared. Yah, I need to go prepare myself now. Im gona take Chris and Sammy to Walmart. Oh, I need black pants too...stupid dress code. MICHELLE CALL ME!!! |
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| parting is such bittersweet sorrow...heehee |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|08:38 pm] |
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Okay so there are Two weeks and three days left of my life in Maine and I am getting really sad. Im totally psyched, like the most I have ever been in my life, but I know that this is the end of my childhood and the begenning of my adult life. This was my last REAL summer vacation. Total bummer dude. Today is mi padre's cumpleanos feliz. Today is also the day I work. Kelly had me take the kids to the Childrens Museum and I had to go on the Interstate. My car goes into severe seasures( how do you spell that? you know what Im saying anyway...) if I go over 50 mph and I was going 60. I thought Rocinante was going to explode,And then Rocinante did explode,And we all died, and then I took the kids to Burger King on St.Johns street. Dont go there. Okay. Madcat when is your party cus im gona be gone this sat and sun and next sat. give me some details and dont get arrested. That goes to kachock too. |
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| cake rhymes with dake! |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|08:18 pm] |
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| | mmmmbob | ] |
Four more weeks and six more days and then I am gone. I will be gone for five whole entire months. Holy Cow!!!! But the good news is I am definetly coming home for college. Tess is pretty pleased with that, as am I. Today was a muffin day, a mix berry muffin day with David, Mad, and Kachoki-woki-boki. And than after the muffin part of the day was over the thank-you note part started. I've only written 16 thankyou notes and I still have about 50 more to go. It's cool that everyone wanted to come to my grad party and give me money, but sometimes being so loved is a burden....Ohhhhhhhhhhh woe is me!!!!! I hate thankyou notes! I got all this dinero and now Im giving half of it back in stamps! Those sticky little bastards are expensive!!!Hmmmmmmmmm...On a lighter note David liked his magnets and Mad liked her t-shirt so all is well. Oh! and even better, I watched Kill Bill Vol1 and it was da-bomb. I can't waite to see Vol2. Im positively quivering with anticipation! Eeww gross, that sounds sexual, so I'll use a different phrase. I'll say that I'm twitching with anticipation. Yup, im just twitching away... |
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| time to start again |
[May. 20th, 2004|10:54 am] |
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| | beatles, one of their songs... | ] |
Im going away soon so here is what i decided: I am going to start writting in here again. I think this is a great way to know whats going on with my friends while im in Oklahoma. And you guys can read my stuff as well. Exciting eh? Im sure the w-towners are all pleased. Youre all live journal junkies anyway. We probably wont talk on the phone, so this can be our line of communication. I dont know what im going to do about Aimee. She refuses to participate in the live journal deal, as i once did. Only two more days of classes, and then finals. I cant believe this is happening. I have waited so long for this, and now it doesnt even seem real. Holy cow. |
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| thai food |
[Mar. 17th, 2004|05:52 pm] |
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i liked today. i like most days. i did laundry which included lots of underwear and socks. i had been running kinda low on underwear......like really low. like i hadnt worn any in, like, a week. haha. only four more months and then oklahoma. i started crying today when i thought about how much i will miss tessa. She is my best friend/only sister. But college is here and im going and no looking back, right kids? and just so everyone knows that thing in physics with the lap tops that madison was talking about, didnt happen to me. She made it up. like i would ever do anything that stupid. please. im gona get you mad cat |
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| heavens to betsy! |
[Mar. 14th, 2004|12:57 pm] |
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| | Damien Rice, O | ] |
Finger Eleven was incredible! Estan muy taliente! ( They are very talented), atleast i think thats what i said. they were the best band there. Strata was a good opening band, they pumped everyone up and made latina girls jump on me. i didnt really like the second part. I tried to understand them when they spoke in spanish but all i understood was one girl saying "no saben!" (they dont know)interesante. BTC and i counted three mullets while there. There was a techie with one, a dad standing next to me, and some dude with a curly one. Man, he was a beaut! But anyway, seeing eleven thumbs was the best birthday present ever, thanks BTC! i love my life. That reminds me of Aunt Laurel.... |
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| laughing to keep from crying |
[Mar. 10th, 2004|10:25 pm] |
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i wish i could have stared at the stars tonight. Oh how i love them!!! i could look at the stars for hours, and hours, and hours. I wonder what it is about the celestial shpere that facinates me? Maybe its heaven. I wish i was in heaven with God because i love Jesus so much and life so little. Ill get better at this whole life thing, i know i will, but heaven just sounds so much better. Atleast i dont have to go through this life with out God. That would suck. I would want to die but i would be scared to kill myself because i wouldnt know what would happen in life after death. I would just cling pathetically to my miserable excuse for a life, always being scared of death. No wonder people everywhere are so unhappy. What a horrible way to live. It is so fabulous that i dont have to be scared of anything, not people, not death, not demons, not nuthin! With all i have going for me i really should be happy, but im really not. Im very frusterated with people right now (meaning the human race)or maybe a better word would be disapointed. Where do people find it in themselves to be so mean? How do they live with what they have done? I see what the children at school do and i wonder how they can tollerate themselves. I have the terrible suspicion that im going to go through the rest of my life not liking anyone. Jesus, please dont let that happen. I think im glad people describe me as wierd because that means im not like them and that is good because i dont want to be! |
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| bluuuuuuuuurrrroowwwwpppppp!!! |
[Feb. 26th, 2004|10:33 pm] |
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| | dun dun da dun da dun da | ] |
yeehaa! i got to see Sharon and her bebita today. Her child is beautiful and had blue eyes like her. It is so nice to be back on the road and independent. And working again is nice too. I love sam and chris and i know ill miss them when i go to college. Yup, Tessa, Sam, and Chris are all my itty-witty babies. College, college, college is all i can think about! I am a free spirit.like the dust bunnie, i must go where the wind blows me. i shall mount the wind with my wings and fly, fly to faraway places. Places where there is no snow and no one has ever heard the name of Marla Feffers before, except for my admissions counslers. |
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| peace, tranquility, and happiness |
[Feb. 22nd, 2004|03:20 pm] |
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| | harp and bowl | ] |
My nose is totally full 0f boogers, totally. Which is a huge pain cuz i just had my nose repierced and so it hurts every time i have to blow my nose. And on top of that my nose is bright red, which makes me even more beautiful than i already am. Im not being sarcastic, i really am beautiful, like all my friends. Were all beautiful. I am going through the process of removing myself emotionaly from someone. It hurts me that i have to do it but its also a relief. Its really nice when you finally give yourself permision to do things like that. I feel liberated. And it isnt that im just freeing myself from someone, im freeing myself from the opinions of others. Some christians will tell you that you have to like everyone, its part of the "love thy neighbhor" command, but i disagree. God doesnt want me to be dragged down by other people, God wants me to be happy and joyful. What a difficult process, i cant wait till i get my fresh start. My clean slate where i get to start all over again, in dear ol' oklahoma. I will not do this to my self again because high school already taught me that lesson. Speaking of high school that reminds me that i have 3 writting assingments to do. oh buggah |
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| mmmmmmmmmm....salad. |
[Feb. 19th, 2004|08:34 pm] |
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i bought new nose rings today and now i cant get them in! I have a hole in my nose and nothing to plug it with. Im going to have to have someone else do it for me. I am in desperate need of a "nose-ring-putter-inner". So if anyone knows of such a person, Hook me up! I think spiders are bitting me in my sleep. There must be a nest under my bed because when i wake up in the morning i have little red itchy bumps on my neck........oh my gosh! VAMPIRES!!!!!!!!!!!!! but no, i dont believe in vampires. Thats so gross, im gona have to find another room to sleep in. Besides getting bit by spiders at night,i have spent my vacation tye-dying everything in site. My mother told me i couldnt tye-dye anymore becuase it "was getting to be too much." I swear the woman has no fashion sense. speaking of which, i went prom dress shoping. Its so difficult for me to do this becuase i feel so uncomfortable, so not maria, in all those fluffy dresses. I cant wait till prom, graduation, and all that other stuff is over. I want summer to be here so badly so that i can graduate and finally put highschool behind me. Heavens to Betsy it sounds like a dream. |
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| chinese food |
[Feb. 14th, 2004|08:37 pm] |
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| | Greenday dookie, #3 | ] |
i dont think im gona be good at this whole "live journal" thing. i keep forgeting to update. But dont you worry, i wouldnt want to let my devoted readers down. I shall strive on bravely and renew my efforts to entertain you. hmmmmmmmmm...now to say something entertaining, its valentines day and im getting a boyfriend tomorrow. Me and Aimee were talking and i was complaining about not having a boyfriend. IT was so funny, i was all like " Bummer dude, i totally wish i had a boyfriend" and then she was all like " NO YOU DONT!" and then i was like "oh yeah, your right, i forgot." Im really glad she reminded me because i was feeling kind of pathetic about it. it was really cool that she reminded me that in reality i dont want a boyfriend. I just want to feel good about myself, and supposedly boyfriends can do that, but then they take up so much time! and they always end up in tragedy, so whats the point? I should feel good about who i am anyway. I guess i just wanted to be wanted. Well, atleast Jesus likes me, and i know my friends do too, right guys? Is that why you guys want boyfriends too? Or are you just horny like Kachock? I wonder if things will change when i leave for Oklahoma? Wouldnt it be cool if there were a bunch of christian guys who liked me at ORU. None of them would care that i wouldnt have sex because they'd probably all agree with me. Id call you guys from oru and i be all like " Oops! sorry Mad Cat, but i gota go. I have a date with Bob" or " Oh good gravy! Im sorry Amy but i forgot i have to go and do my hair,nails, face,and plan my outfit for my hot date with Bradley tonight." Yup, i can so see that happening, cant you? |
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| i dont think i like this |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|11:20 am] |
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| | greenday, ive been waiting | ] |
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,,,,,, i was accepted into ORU today. To celebrate me and Kachock bought a bag of weed. i cant wait till tonight. I think Aimees bringing the booze. Its gona be the bomb. |
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